Why is it so hard, ok nearly impossible, to ask for help?

Does anyone else have this problem?

Sometimes I wonder how strong, smart, intelligent , confident women can find it so hard to ask for help.

I've been thinking about this since late last week. You see I returned to work this week (thats a whole other post) and as you may have read, my darling Matilda is not loving the drop off at day care.

Update for those playing along - its getting much better, well not the drop off so much but she is enjoying being there a lot more. And she did get two molars this week, that wont have helped.

Anyway, knowing that I have always struggled to get myself to work on time I was all in a bind about getting us both ready on Monday morning, getting to day care then work all without rushing Matilda and making her feel worse.

Then I had a brainwave - maybe Matilda's Dad could work from home on Monday and take her to care for me? Great idea, all I had to do was ask.


So I did, but it came out a bit like this:

"Hon, do you think maybe, only if, but probably not, your probably too busy, but maybe if you could and wouldn't mind, could you try and work from home one Monday?"

WTF?? Seriously, could I have been any more non committal? Now, for those of you who know Matilda's Dad he is anything but intimidating, so that's clearly not the issue. So what is?

I think maybe its just that inbuilt, ridiculous, aversion to asking for help. Its like the strong, intelligent women inside knows exactly what you want and need but the invincible, mothering side screams "NOOO Don't ask for help. you'll look weak".

I know this and yet my request for help was feeble to say the least.

Lucky I have a strong, intelligent and supportive husband who saw right through that and worked from home to look after both me and our precious little girl <3