So I dropped her off at day care today...

Yikes.

Yup I could actually stop right there, yikes.

Its funny though my anxiety about Matilda heading off to childcare today wasn't actually about how Matilda would react. She is such a social butterfly childcare will be heaven for her. It was more about being prepared for her, having everything she could possibly need in her bag so that her day could go to plan.

Lets hope that's what I have done! I've probably packed enough food to feed Matilda, all the other kids and the staff!

Sitting talking about today's activities last night, Matilda's Dad said to me "Now remember tomorrow, conscious parenting" Ha! Easy for him to say he was off to work and could be as anxious as he liked away from home...

But actually he was right. We don't believe in teaching Matilda to be afraid or to pass on our anxieties to her. So this morning we had a great time getting ready for school, we talked about it on the way there, sung songs and then sung the "My mummy comes back" song.

Come on Mum lets go!

We walked into the centre happy, said good morning to everyone one we met and then she was off!


I flitted about making sure Matilda's things were where they needed to be, that the staff knew she was in cloth nappies and how to deal with them and that her 'schedule' was up on the board.

Explaining her schedule was a bit of a challenge. We have a schedule that is led by how Matilda is feeling, just like we go to bed when we are tired so does Matilda, when Matilda is hungry she has her food. So putting on the board times for sleeps and meals was a little challenging. She certainly didn't fit into the boxes like the other bubs!

But I am sure she will whip the staff into action and they will soon learn her routine :)

The hardest part? The other babies. They were all crying (or asleep), it was heartbreaking and all I wanted to do is pick them up and cuddle them.

So once I was ready  - yes, me as Matilda was long gone by then, climbing up on everything and yelling 'da' (Matilda we think) into the mirror, I said goodbye and walked out the door.

Matilda waved and went back to playing.

I called Matilda's Dad and went straight to my local cafe for a chai!

A soy chai late at my local cafe...

So now Matilda is off having a blast at the farm while Mummy avoids the housework and blogs about it. It really wasn't so hard getting her there as I had thought, after all I am only 10 minutes away if they need me.

 She will no doubt talk all about her day on the way home this afternoon. I cant wait.