Mummy, what is a fraud?

Ever had one of those experiences that made you feel like a complete and utter fraud? Me too and there seems very little I can do about it for now.

You see a couple of weeks ago I posted about taking Matilda to day care for the very first time. I was understandably nervous but optimistic as Matilda loves kids and is usually a happy go lucky little creature.

Well I was right to be optimistic that day, she had loved every minute of it. When I arrived to pick her up she was sound asleep. When I eventually woke her she was excited... to show me the fan in the bedroom (she loves fans more than almost anything), when I brought her out of the sleeping room she clambered down to continue playing.

Phew. That was so much better than it could have been. Day two was similar to day one and I had one happy little girl on my hands.

Somehow I think she would rather be at the beach...

Happy first birthday baby girl

So I have been thinking about the best way to blog about my girls birthday, and then someone did it for me!

Please read Jennifer Burch Photography's A very special family, its a very beautiful, honest and touching account of my girls first year from the outside.

My family is lucky to have met this amazing photographer and I cannot express how much this posts means to us.

Happy 1st Birthday baby girl xoxo

So I dropped her off at day care today...

Yikes.

Yup I could actually stop right there, yikes.

Its funny though my anxiety about Matilda heading off to childcare today wasn't actually about how Matilda would react. She is such a social butterfly childcare will be heaven for her. It was more about being prepared for her, having everything she could possibly need in her bag so that her day could go to plan.

Lets hope that's what I have done! I've probably packed enough food to feed Matilda, all the other kids and the staff!

Sitting talking about today's activities last night, Matilda's Dad said to me "Now remember tomorrow, conscious parenting" Ha! Easy for him to say he was off to work and could be as anxious as he liked away from home...

But actually he was right. We don't believe in teaching Matilda to be afraid or to pass on our anxieties to her. So this morning we had a great time getting ready for school, we talked about it on the way there, sung songs and then sung the "My mummy comes back" song.

Come on Mum lets go!

We walked into the centre happy, said good morning to everyone one we met and then she was off!

Happy New Year!